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[17 Feb 2009|04:40pm] |
PRIVATE.
There are so many people I worry about.
Sophie Abbott is one of them. I do hope her brothers were able to get out and are safe now, and will continue to be safe. There's no real way to tell for certain. It's during times like these that I wish I hadn't relinquished my secretarial position at the Ministry. I think it's rather obvious they would have suspected me no matter what I did, considering I did fight back, but if I stayed, I could have done something to prove my allegiance to their side -- or at least feigned some sort of neutrality. I suppose it's too late now.
I worry about Gina. I worry of how she thinks of me. I worry about Remus and Marlene, and Meaghan, and Ted, and the list goes on. It's an endless list.
I worry about what will happen if Aeneas Nott is elected Minister.
I guess I shouldn't be wasting time worrying, and should instead focus on helping Andromeda. A second safe house is precisely what we need. It's our job to keep people safe, after all.
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[16 Feb 2009|11:12pm] |
I hope everyone had a nice Valentine's Day.
You know. As nice as it could be.
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[10 Feb 2009|02:28am] |
( Sophie Abbott. )
( Order. )
I've recently found myself at a loss for words. For obvious reasons, I do believe. One day, I'll have a lot more to say.
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[20 Jan 2009|09:21pm] |
WARDED TO LILY.
Lily, you were glowing like a vibrant star in the night sky the last time I saw you. I just want to wish you congratulations.
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[14 Jan 2009|01:06am] |
WARDED TO THE ORDER.
First of all, I would like to thank Frank Longbottom and Andromeda Tonks for saving my life. As well as the rest of you, of course. You've all been wonderful friends to me -- not sure what I'd do if I weren't surrounded by such infinitely warm individuals. With Al gone, and now Dorcas, I'm completely empty inside. A pod without its peas. A broken, wounded man standing alone upon a snowy mountaintop. And if you were wondering, I'm not crying right now. The pipes around this old house are a bit leaky at the moment.
Those who are left help to fill that void, but we mustn't forget them. We musn't forget Dorcas. Or Al. Or anyone we've lost. Dorcas had a brilliant mind, and though she was reckless, she was searching for the same sort of future we are. She was one of us. I love each and every one of you with every inch of my heart, and on the bright side, I most certainly won't miss my desk job.
So, no. Goodness no. I'm not ready to give up. My mother wouldn't want us to.
WARDED TO ELLE.
Are you all right? Is everyone all right?
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[23 Dec 2008|11:31am] |
PRIVATE.
Octavius Pepper is not a villain, but as far as I can tell, he also isn't as innocent as some seem to believe. I really don't think he's the victim in this situation, and I don't know if I like the idea of lifting the spells on him. He has his own agendas, we all do, but for me, that doesn't excuse his actions. Those who trust him have every right to trust him. Those who don't have every right not to. It doesn't need to go deeper than that.
I trust Professor Dumbledore, and I don't believe my trust in him is blind. I don't believe the Order is blind.
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[17 Dec 2008|05:19pm] |
PRIVATE.
I'm not usually one to complain, but my life is a bit of a mess. Al is gone. Forever. He won't be walking through that door to greet me. I haven't yet accepted the harsh, painful reality of his death, and I don't want to accept it. He was my best friend, and there's no one else left in the world whom I feel comfortable getting intimate with. Elle must be having a rough time, but it's difficult to gauge her emotions. Whenever she's ready to talk, I'm there for her. I'll listen no matter what it takes. I hope she realises that.
My mother would be so ashamed of me. I slept with a woman and I don't remember it happening. The office has been infinitely more awkward, and I imagine it will only get worse, especially if I continue to trip all over myself whenever I'm in her presence. Gina deserves so much more respect and attention. I'm a horrible, horrible man.
The Minister is another thing to worry about, but I don't even want to think about that and all the possible endings to this twisted story.
I wonder if it's too early for New Year's resolutions. I've got quite the list.
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[06 Dec 2008|12:22pm] |
PEPPER.
I wanted to apologise to you directly. It was not my place to make such a foul comment to you, and I'm very sorry. If there is anything you need, let me know.
ELLE.
He loved you. He loved you more than anything. This hasn't gone away like I thought it would, but he loved you.
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[05 Dec 2008|09:51pm] |
WARDED TO THE ORDER.
This is absolute madness. Alastor isn't dead. He wouldn't leave without giving us a chance to say goodbye.
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[14 Nov 2008|01:16am] |
PRIVATE.
All this fighting really brings my spirits down.
I wish there was a solution that would leave everyone content. Quite frankly, I understand both sides. I understand why a person wouldn't want Severus Snape there. He's rubbed shoulders with the men who have killed our families -- he's probably even been directly responsible for some of our loses. While I personally have no problem with him coming, I also don't think it's fair to act like it's no big deal, or to think people have no right to be weary and unwilling. It's a bit of an insult. It is a big deal. I'm sure he's a swell fellow, but that doesn't automatically redeem him of his wrongdoings.
I don't know. It's not up to me, but I am all right with giving this fellow a chance.
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[10 Nov 2008|07:16pm] |
PRIVATE.
This cannot be.
We were supposed to be allowed a break from this sort of thing, but as these tears drip down my cheeks, I start to realise we will never be given a break. Agnes. Agnes did not deserve this.
Tabitha Pryce, you will soon meet your end. You've harmed far too many people, and no one is going to protect you now. And the Death Eaters, well, I'm certain they will one day experience the worst regret imaginable. It will eat them alive.
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[05 Nov 2008|09:38pm] |
WARDED TO THE ORDER.
First of all, I'd like to wish a happy birthday to Octavius Pepper. I hope you enjoyed yourself as much as you could.
Secondly, I'd like to express a belated congratulations to our efforts being fruitful for once. I'm very proud. We did an excellent job. We proved that we can unite against the forces of evil. We proved that we can work together in the end, for better or worse. I admit I didn't entirely agree with the methods we used, but hopefully, this will do some good in the long run. I'll eat my words if we can keep these people in prison, which is exactly where a lot of them belong. If nothing else, at least the public is being informed of what we're possibly dealing with. I'd say that's a definite step in the right direction. The public should have no reason to trust them.
Anyway, I was feeling a little nostalgic this evening, so I went flipping through a few old photo albums -- the ones my mother always made a big deal of -- to try and reminisce. When she was alive, I don't think I understood why she was so adamant about capturing these memories from our lives, but now I get it. I get it. I've been thinking about, perhaps, constructing a memorial for all our casualties. I'm not sure if anyone else thinks this is a good idea, but I'd like your input.
END WARD.
Today was a good day.
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[23 Oct 2008|02:56pm] |
WARDED TO ALASTOR GUMBOIL.
How do you feel about bringing a puppy or two into our quaint little family? I must say that it's something I've been thinking about for a while now.
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[13 Oct 2008|11:48pm] |
PRIVATE.If I were writing a letter to Tabitha Pryce, I don't think I'd know where to start other than at the beginning. It's like all the humanity she once possessed was sucked out of her with concussive force. I don't reckon she'll ever be the same. I doubt she'll ever feel again. I don't think she'll have the desire to try and rectify her mistakes in life. No matter what I'd write, it would go in one ear and out the other, like I hadn't said anything at all. Whoever murdered my family likely has the same mentality. Murdering children is not normal. Murdering children makes you a sick individual. I can scarcely form the sentences I need in order to describe my boiling rage. Someone had better take the teakettle off the stove.
If I wrote a letter to Tabitha Pryce, it'd go a bit like this:
Dear Tabitha,
I regret ever pitying you.
Sincerely,
Dedalus Diggle
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[10 Oct 2008|02:02pm] |
WARDED TO THE ORDER.
My word. Glad to see we're making progress. Is there anything in particular I can do? Work has been a little slow, so I definitely have the extra time. I know we needed a few more volunteers for servants and caterers and such -- has anything been decided on that front?
I also must admit that I'm at a loss regarding costume ideas. If anyone has any suggestions, I'd love to hear them.
Last but not least, I'd like to wish a happy birthday to Emmeline Vance. You grow more beautiful with each day.
WARDED TO HIGGS, ALASTOR AND TED.
We should catch up soon. It's been a while since I've experienced the pleasures of manly company. I've been living with Al, but that's a bit different. I suppose we can have drinks and chat about women. Or, perhaps, the two of you can join Al and I for dinner.
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[03 Oct 2008|01:55am] |
WARDED TO THE ORDER.
I'd like to extend a heartfelt and sincere welcome to Bethany Frobisher, Alastor Gumboil and Hestia Jones. You don't know how happy we are to have you here with us. We know that you'll contribute a great deal to our cause, and I'm personally very excited to get to know you two a little more intimately. If you need anything, Dedalus Diggle is at your service. I'm here, and I'm reporting for duty.
Right then. Make yourselves at home. There's some important business we're trying to sort out, but feel free to jump right in.
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[21 Sep 2008|01:11am] |
( Private. )
Animals are our friends. Let's not make them our enemies. Fur as a fashion accessory is absolutely unnecessary, and the men and women who wear it should also focus on enhancing their inner beauty. That's important, too, you know.
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[17 Sep 2008|10:17pm] |
WARDED TO THE ORDER.
Some food for thought/intellectual nourishment:
No matter what, none of us will be able to get through this war alone. You might disagree with me when I say the Order is a circle of friends, but I truly feel that's what we should be. We need to trust each other, love each other and guide each other through these troubled times. Obviously, working without one another has not worked so far. I can't think of a time when it's been beneficial. I'm absolutely embarrassed at the fact that the Death Eaters seem more friendly than we do. Efforts need to be made in order for us to become unified. We need to change our ways.
Sorry if this comes across a little rude. I don't mean to offend anyone. Opinions?
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[14 Sep 2008|01:22pm] |
WARDED TO THE ORDER.I can't find the bloody words
But I hope everyone got out of there alive.
I hadn't realis ed You-Know-Who recruited children, and I don't fee l bad for not fighting back. Is it really their fault that they're brainwashed the way they are? It's absolutely sickening. Revolting. Disgusting. Really, really awful. A boy who is no older than 16 is a child, and if I'm not mistaken, that's precisely who pointed the ir wand at me. I couldn't fight back. As far as I'm concerned, they're not beyond help
A boy, tall and thin, with a voice that didn't s sssound very manly at all. I'm very sorry. I know I cou ld have done more.
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